Thanks guys,,,,
I’m sorry if I worried anyone, I had a super bad fit earlier, it probably doesn’t help that I uh “came on” earlier too (tmi? tmi). I don’t really want to die! I just might need to go back to the doctor and get on anti-psychotics if the herbal stuff I’m on doesn’t kick in soon. 

But yes, I’ve had a nearly 3 hour long phone call with Joseph and I’m curled up in bed watching Disney films whilst waiting for my dinner so I’m feeling better now. Thank you so much for looking out to me though, and to all my other friends! I really do value you all lots and I promise I’m not going to undermine that by offing myself.